shh.

weird

My horoscopes for yesterday, and today (it’s 12:28AM)

“Ignite the fire in your heart, Leo, and make it burn more brightly than before. Keep in mind that you may need to make compromises in order to be on the same page with your lover in the way you relate emotionally. Make sure everyone gets a chance to be on center stage. Don’t hog the podium. Maintain a working balance by letting others have their turn in the spotlight.”

“Leo, this may prove a challenging day for you. You’re used to being the sovereign surrounded by courtiers currying your favor. There’s something trying to draw attention away from you, reminding you that there are other people on this planet besides you. An unexpected messenger may crop up to remind you that not everything revolves around your existence.”

joy to the world

The thought of Christmas break nearing brings me instant relief, gets me too excited and results in me being totally content with my crazy beautiful life.

The countdown is on!

o3: last day of school before break

o5: Maya’s 21st Birthday

o6: jet-setting home for the holidays

a day without you is like a year without rain

I haven’t posted on here in a while, mostly because I forgot that I had a tumblr, but also because I’ve been far too busy with my life to worry about keeping everyone up to date with useless information; images, thoughts, feelings and emotions. As of late, I’ve been all sorts of a mess. The feeling of attraction and affection drives me absolutely insane, and I don’t know how to deal with it -  I haven’t felt this way about someone in forever it seems and I am scared that I will fuck it up. I’m awfully good at doing that. It’s not that I’m in a rush to get anywhere, or to put a label on anything, it just feels so amazing to have someone I care about, and to feel the same affection back. I’m trying not to think into it so much, but I can’t help myself - I think about you so much, and I can’t get enough. 

School has been insanely busy, irritating individuals surround me daily, I’m on edge and I feel like I might snap. Thankfully I have 4 days left before I get 2 weeks off for Christmas break. I’m proud of myself for sticking it out, because I know that I will make it big one day. It’s so nice to do something I actually love for a change, and the fact that I’m doing it for myself and for my benefit is refreshing. I have school in 12 hours, so I should be sleeping but my mind won’t shut off - I have thoughts racing through my mind faster then the speed of light all the time lately, it’s overwhelming. I felt that posting some of these thoughts on here would relieve the craziness that I’ve been feeling lately so hopefully it works.

I deactivated my Facebook account tonight, just to have some privacy for a while. I need to be in the unknown. I also developed an insane case of hives all over me and I’m so itchy, I’m also confused because I have no allergies that I’m aware of. I’m going to bring this post to a close, I feel like I’ve said enough. Goodnight.

Yours truly. 

wasted hours

Try to put it in the past, hold onto myself and don’t look back

the road less travelled

I’m tired of feeling like everything starts to work out really well and then in an instant it’s all crashing down on top of me, preventing me from standing back up.

and why the FUCK do I never learn? I’m such a useless piece of shit.

disarm

I wish I could get an idea of what I even believe in anymore. It would make my life a lot easier to fight for. I’m slowly shutting down, and I don’t want anyone’s help. I want to fade away, and I don’t care what anyone says.

All that’s left are all these ashes

 Do you know what hurts the most about a broken heart? not being able to remember how you felt before. Try and keep that feeling, because if it goes… You’ll never get it back. What happens then? You’re a waste to the world, and everything in it.